2015 was a hard year because I couldn’t take the lies anymore.  I couldn’t take the gaslighting when it was happening but I didn’t know what it was or how to explain it.  I thought I was going crazy.  I was on a roller coaster ride and blamed myself but it wasn’t until after I cut him off that I realized it was him.  I never knew how he was going to throw me under the bus. The minute I would show vulnerability, he would strike.  I’m convinced he was and is still trying to get me to commit suicide or drop dead – Truth will prevail and once it does, they will be on the defensive.