Because soon we are going to be in a forum where I will be asked why.  Is it because I am “obsessed” – My abuser thinks so because he believes he was so good to me.  Oh yes, so good he’s left his marks on me for the rest of my life.  I look forward to explaining why.  I also look forward to having all of his activities for the last two years on one huge board juxtaposed to mine.  I want his selfies with his new supplier up right next to my activities as my people explain why my life has been what it is.